I am not a volunteer firefighter, because inevitably I would cause more than I prevented. Raised by my father, I am now very good at getting myself out of really tight situations (generally beaurocratic in nature). I can only blame myself on my ability to get myself into them. I came really close to losing my license today. That's about all I'll say -- ugh. One of those painful days where you are both in control and completely out of it; where depression clouds the future; etc. I may have pulled out of it. Hopefully I'll have a positive confirmation soon.